On a Tuesday our flight landed mid-day in Seattle after a ten-hour flight – it was an easy journey across the globe from Frankfurt, over Iceland/Canada, and finally, home to the Pacific Northwest. Ken and Everett’s emotions: pure joy, “absolutely buzzing.” The thrill of being home – finally. Their elation was “off the charts'' hyperactive in baggage claim. Yes, there were tears of exhaustion but mostly relief and joy. Me… there was instant dissociation – too much noise, too much excitement, and really, avoidance of the trip’s completion looming from the subconscious.
Arriving at Queen Anne (our posh neighborhood) perched on the hill… pulling up to our house: excited nerves. The renters kept our house spotless and the hand-off of Teddy (our dog) was blissful, especially for Everett. If ever one needs to be re-inspired by life, witness an encounter of a young boy and his long-lost dog.
Our first week back? Spent unpacking our belongings (everything was in storage) and restarting our previous life – mostly administrative details like sorting through mail, setting up our home security system, scheduling medical visits, and getting our vehicles in working order. Unpacking our cardboard boxes, a bit dusty. (Why did we keep so much stuff?). Weeding our overgrown gardens, untouched but thriving. (Would the neighbor’s notice any disorder?) Driving our neighborhood unchanged, sleuthing for any noticeable modifications. (The new Safeway building looks great, way more Rivians). Somehow exactly the same and yet we are different. A few new buildings and all the familiar faces. Could one conceive, it didn’t really happen at all? Just a whim of the mind and fortune? Imagine: returning to your hometown after a year away, you have changed and yet, everything is exactly the same. You are altered but it’s all too comfortable and enticing to object to what is known.
Let’s be honest: Everett wanted (needed) to be home. It was a dramatic learning curve for a young child who had no choice but to mature greatly. Ken could keep going forever, a spontaneous and joyful wanderer… but the impulsivity of his youth has tamed and he desires to re-engage in a life that he always loved – skiing Crystal, mountain biking at Duthie Hill, and socializing as only an extrovert does. So, by returning, he rekindled a deep comfort; his pragmatic nature does acknowledge a pending career responsibility, however. For me, the thirst for discovery, ambition, and the unknown haunts my every thought, even as the daily routines and excessive consumerism returns. I suppose, independence is a hallmark (being true to oneself) and I fear a stationary life. Still to be discovered: Columbia, Senegal, Nepal, Uzbekistan, Antarctica. As of late I’m obsessed with Carl Jung and it’s helped me to understand my true self: it’s simply in one’s nature.
We were resourceful and learned about the world. And the possible. We grew as a family. Our blogs might suggest it was easy -- it was not. It was lonely and hard and transforming. Sitting on our porch in the late afternoon sun, the wind said to me, we have missed you. The streets said, we are the same. And the sun said, I’ve been with you all along.
What should we ask of you, as we transition to this next part of our life? Accept our flaws: impulsiveness. Appreciate our skills: adaptability. We’d continue indefinitely if we could, wandering, seeking undiscovered treasures, sharing our truths. Please know: the biggest fear of a nomad is a life of the mundane and stagnation.
We crave the freedom to seek our own path. To ask what’s next, unlimited and unknown. Allowing nature to flow through oneself and not be limited by traditional constraints of what society tells us to do. Our sincerest gratitude for your words of encouragement, support, and honesty. And like a dream, we return to where we started. Until next time, we wish you farewell.